Tuesday, January 12, 2010

爱无国界

I have never turned into God when I deal with relationships. This time, I am so tired, hurt, afraid, confused and struggled. I am so angry about myself, about my blindness and stupidity. I have no power to forget and forgive. I have never experienced anything like this within a relationship and I really don’t know how to cope with it. I know what I have been saying are not from the bottom of my heart but just to make myself feel that it is not a big deal and I don’t care that much. But I know I fell into a big lie and finally I woke up in the dark. I have no way out.

I am just too weak. I have no power to keep myself moving forward. I know I have to consult someone more powerful and sinless. I then opened the bible to seek for answers.

When you are tried:

Because the LORD is my Shepherd, I have everything I need. He lets me rest in the meadow grass and leads me beside the quiet steams. He restores my failing health. He helps me do what honors him the most. Even when walking through the dark valley of death I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me, guarding, guiding all the way. Your goodness and unfailing kindness shall be with me all my life, and afterwards I will live with you forever in your home. (Psalm 23)

When you are hurting:

Since we have such a huge crowd of men of faith watching us from the grandstands, let us strip off anything that slows us down or holds us back, and especially those sins that wrap themselves so tightly around our feet and trip us up; and let us run with patience the particular race that God has set before us.

And have you quite forgotten the encouraging words God spoke to you, his child? He said, “My son, don’t be angry when the Lord punishes you. Don’t be discouraged when he has to show you where you are wrong. For when he punishes you, it proves you are really his child.”……Being punished isn’t enjoyable while it is happening – it hurts! But afterwards we can see the result, a quiet growth in grace and character. So take a new grip with your tired hands, stand firm on your shaky legs, and mark our a straight, smooth path for your feet so that those who follow you, though weak and lame, will not fall and hurt themselves, but become strong…….He will sift out everything with solid foundations, so that only unshakable things will be left. (Hebrews 12)

When you need to make a decision:

Never forget to be truthful and kind. Hold these virtues tightly. Write them deep within your heart.

Wisdom is a tree of life to those who eat her fruit; happy is the man who keeps on eating it. Have two goals: wisdom, that is knowing and doing, and common sense. (Proverbs 3)

When the way is rough, your patience has a chance to grow. So let it grow, and don’t try to squirm out of your problems. For when your patience is finally in full bloom, then you will be ready for anything, strong in character, full and complete. (James 1)

Finally, what is true love?

Love is very patient and kind, never jealous or envious, never boastful or proud, never haughty or selfish or rude. Love does not demand its own way. It is not irritable or touchy. It does not hold grudges and will hardly even notice when others do it wrong. It is never glad about injustice, but rejoices whenever truth wins out. If you love someone you will be loyal to him no matter what the cost. You will always believe in him, always expect the best of him, and always stand your ground in defending him.

There are three things that remain --- faith, hope, and love --- and the greatest of these is love.

I typed words by words and reflect myself what I have done wrong. I feel brighter and brighter while typing God’s words. Even though I have read some of them many times, I really have better understanding this time. I still don’t know what in front me and this relationship, but I know that I need to move forward in my life with confidence, with a brand new myself. I just need to believe “as for God, his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is true.”

I cannot change anything but myself, and I can only do it through God’s power.

Finally, I hope God’s words may inspire, help and instruct other people if anyone ever going to walk pass this page.

May God Continue to Bless Us.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Tomo's Comic Version


I somehow find this is the comic version of Tomo. Let me know what you think.

Where it starts, where it ends.



“圆满” (Yuan man) is a word derived from ancient literature, and is closely related to Buddhism. It basically means consummation, satisfactory or perfection. You can say someone reached “Yuan man” when he died. The word “圆” in “圆满” also means circle, so many things are cycles around one center, such as life. As you know, there are 12 Chinese zodiac signs and you were born within one of them. Your life will be in cycles of every 12 years. It is not a bad thing to die in the year of the zodiac signs of your birth (eg. at the age of 60, 72, 84 or 96) so in a way you reach to “yuan man”.

I always expect the unexpected, such as the stuff change in the company this time. It was a big surprise but part of it was in my expectation. It was partly presented in my dream about a month before the change. I am affected by it but I know I have to overcome it in order to move on.

My manager and I had a long talk in the McCafe in a night. He is a really nice guy and he believes Buddhism. When I was sitting there, I suddenly realized it was the place we had the first chat when he was trying to introduce me into the company years ago. A circle ends where it started so I guess it has to end this way so that everyone would be better off.

Monday, April 20, 2009

HOMER IS PERFECT


HOMER RULES!!!!!


Watch Video

"HOMER IS PERFECT!"

Everybody thinks he's GREAT!
(They Do? ..Do do do do do do do do doo!)
Homer's got what it takes!

ONE TWO THREE FOUR!

(RAP)

Everybody thinks he's GREAT!
Homer's got what it takes! (Aw yeah!)
Everybody knows who... Who I'm talkin bout
Homer is just that way! (That's right!)

Everybody thinks he's GREAT! (Uh huh!)
I could watch him all day!
Everbody knows who... who I'm talkin bout
Homer is just that way! (Yeah!)

(1ST VERSE)

Homer's a funny man
Works at a power plant
He might be lazy
I like him anyway!

Maybe he's kind of LARGE
His wife's name is Marge
He hangs out at MO's
When he gets mad he says "D'oH!"

Some people don't treat him well!
But they can all go to.. SPRINGFIELD!!

(1ST CHORUS)

Homer is PERFECT!!
He really WORKS it (I work it!)
When I watch the SIMPSONS every night!
(That's right!)
I really GO NUTS!
When he eats DOUGHNUTS!
He might be slow but that's alright (Hey!)
Homer is PERFECT!

(2ND VERSE)

And when he starts to DROOL
I think it's REALLY COOL
His stomach might be big
He did the spider pig!

Maybe he's not too smart
He tries to strangle Bart (Bart!)
Might have a low I.Q.
He buys beer from APU!

He might not have too much hair!
(Yeah yeah yeah!)
But I just don't really care!

(2ND CHORUS)

Homer is PERFECT (Perfect!)
He really works it! (Work it!)
Sometimes he might not seem too bright (Hey!)
Homer is PERFECT!! (WooHoo!)
And he DESERVES IT (Deserves it!)
If he wants to watch T.V all night!

Doesn't have manners!
And I hate Flanders!
He might be a little overweight! (Ohh!)
Homer is perfect!

(BRIDGE)

And I love that guy..
In a straight kind of way!
(Homer is perfect!)
I have every show on DVD so
I can watch HIM ALL day! (You know I do!)

(HOMER SPEECH)
"Kids, you tried your best and
you failed miserably. The lesson here..
is "never try." Because trying is
the first step towards failure!"

ONE TWO THREE FOUR!

(RAP)

Everybody thinks he's GREAT!
Homer's got what it takes! (That's right!)
Everybody knows who... who I'm talkin bout
Homer is just that way! (WooHoo!)

Everybody thinks he's GREAT! (Here we go!)
I could watch him all day! (Uh huh!)
Everbody knows who... Who I'm talkin bout
Homer is just that way!

(LAST CHORUS)

Homer is PERFECT!!
He really WORKS it! (Work it!)
I watch the SIMPSONS every night! (That's right!)
I really GO NUTS!
When he eats DOUGHNUTS!
He might be slow but that's alright

Oh, Homer is PERFECT!
And he DESERVES IT (Deserve it!)
If he wants to watch T.V all day!
Homer is PERFECT (WooHoo!)
He really works it!
He is the BEST that's why I say..(Ohhh!)

That Homer is PERFECT!!
HOMER'S.. PERFECT! (You know!) (I know!)
Homer is PERFECT!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

BGT

To me, the season 8 of the American Idol is finished after Norman Gentle (Nick Mitchell) was eliminated. But luckily, I still have Britain's Got Talent to keep me alive. Personally I like BGT better since it has more varieties and it is not so serious, plus Simon and Piers are my favorite judges.

So far, after the first two episodes of the third season of BGT, I remember three names, Susan Boyle, Flawless and Shaheen Jafargholi . I would say that all of them have pretty good chance to won the show. Based on previous seasons, most contestants would chose to play safe in their final performance and there won't be many changes between the semi-final and the final performance. Hence I think it all comes down to the semi-final performance to decide who the winner is going to be.

After viewing the auditions, I have made the following points:

1 It has never been a group winning the show, could Flawless break this law?
2 For both Susan Boyle and Shaheen Jafargholi , have they already given their best shot? If so, they might be just like The Signature last year who did not won the final last year. On the other hand, George Sampson brought his performance to a new level in the semi-final and he used the same routine to claim the final.


3 Shaheen Jafargholi somehow reminds me Charlie Green. Would he make the same mistake on song choice like Charlie Green last year? Shaheen Jafargholi possibly has higher chance to win the show if he was 2 years older since 12 year old might be a bit too young to grab Britain teenage girls' hearts, but I guess he is the most unpredictable one.
4 I predict Susan Boyle is going to give us another surprise in the semi-final, either good or bad. She is a character.


All right, let's get some chippy and drinks to enjoy the show.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

温馨午后

我想这就是我喜欢新西兰的最重要的原因之一,只需驱车20分钟,就可以让自己置身一片绿色丛林中,在鸟语花香中享受阳光明媚的下午。

与Tomoko和Yasu在周六下午来到Manawatu峡谷。Manawatu峡谷全长6.4公里,紧邻北帕市,有一条Manawatu河贯穿整条峡谷,横断两侧的Ruahine和Tararua山脉。据说这种由河流贯穿整条峡谷的地形非常罕见,Manawatu峡谷也因此在这个区域小有名气。

Manawatu峡谷有一条登山道,普通体能的人走完全程要四个到四个半小时,山路比较容易行走,是全家户外活动的好场所。来这里许多回,除了第一次走完全程,其余只是中途折返。不是因为体能,而是山路并非环形,所以要想回来,除了在终点搭便车便只有再走上4个小时的回程。
较之澳洲的丛林,新西兰的丛林没有毒虫野兽,像个恭敬的绅士。对于我,悲伤时,迷茫时,无聊时,感受压力时,丛林便像一个避风港。即使丛林外风啸雨打,丛林内依然安详。像一个怀抱中的孩子,置身丛林另我有一种归属感,令我安然。

Monday, April 13, 2009

衣橱与棋

印象中有一本叫《菊花与刀》的书,听起来很武侠,所以我也给这篇日记起了个很酷的名字《衣橱与棋》。

结束了三周的假期,踏上北京到奥克兰的航班。直飞的航班就像小叮当的随意门,打开门后便置身于另一个世界。自己在纽西兰和中国的生活仿似国际象棋与中国象棋,虽然同是一局棋,但却遵循着不同的规则,享受不同的乐趣。回到纽西兰,需要一段时间去适应。好像象棋和围棋中的车轮大战,一名棋手面对几位对手同时下不同的棋局,每到一名对手面前,都要读棋,深思熟虑后去过招。而我更像面对两名对手的车轮大战,一局是中国象棋,另一局是国际象棋。倒是不知现实中有没有这样的比赛,如果有,一定非常有趣。

虽然是简易的,但终于有了自己的衣橱,下午还去配了三个木质衣架和三个金属衣架,然后整理好衣物。这下我的屋子便不会太乱了,至少从表面上看去。发明衣橱的人一定是个男人,很懒也很烂。将在北京购买的洗涤用的海绵送给Ange,Tomo和Yasu(因为她们说在中国会比较便宜),告诉她们要物尽其用。呵呵,我也是个很懒也很烂的男人,只是尚未有发明。

在临近结束这篇日记时,上网搜寻了一下《菊花与刀》,原来是美国学者罗斯·本尼迪克特一本关于日本的作品。嗯,关于小日本之作品怎能与吾之大作抗衡。

PS:
小:即小巧玲珑,形容词,褒义。